Ups and downs
May 10, 2012 —
I have been waiting to find out if I was going to get this amazing editing mentorship with Walter Murch for the past five months. I found out that I was nominated in late 2011 for the Rolex Mentor and Protégé Arts Initiative. There was a very extensive application process that included multiple essays, a video, numerous copies of my work and assorted references.
I’m not sure how many people were nominated but I found out in March that I was one of four finalists. It was an amazing honor and also meant that I would be meeting Mr. Murch himself as he would make the final decision.
The meeting was amazing. It was just the two of us and we met in his editing room in New York. He told amazing stories, inspiring stories. He had seen my work and we spoke about that. We talked technical: the future of editing software, and he showed me his Final Cut sequence. I can’t say enough about how amazing it was.
Up until then, I had taken an emotional backseat approach to the whole thing. After the meeting, I really wanted him to choose me. I knew that I would learn tons from him.
A few weeks went by, during which I tried my best not to think about it. Then I was sitting at my desk thinking, I bet I find out today when my phone rang. I picked it up. It was my Rolex contact, a nice woman who had been my liaison through the whole process. “I have bad news,” she said. We talked for a little while longer but all I could think about was an intense desire to get off of the phone.
It was a bummer but the disappointment washed over me for a few days. I thought about it a lot. I tried not to get into why I had not been chosen. But naturally your mind goes there anyway.
The whole experience had been a positive one. Overwhelmingly so. And the disappointment made me much more thankful for the things that I do have in my life. It also gave a great deal of perspective to all of the positive things that have been happening for me over the past few year.
It reinvigorated me on my current project. I have been working on a documentary for the past year and I am just finally getting to a point where it is coming together. There is finally something to work with. I think that we have struck on the tone of the film. I feel like I am closer to knowing what that is now. It’s a good feeling.