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Oddservations
By
Michel Singher
I have for
over a year had been the regular houseguest of a gracious 89-year-old
lady. Only recently has it gotten back to me that she assures family,
friends and neighbors the relationship is a platonic one. I am deeply
flattered.
We're thrown
together for five minutes sharing a cab in a downpour. He's my senior,
and his appearance of wealth and status is confirmed when he mentions
having been on the Board of the World Trade Center. We converse about
his recent vacation in Tuscany. Despite my expressed enthusiasm for
Siennese painting, he says, "Aaargh, if I never see another 13th Century
Madonna, it'll be one too many. My wife's the art major, and I just
had to turn her off when she was telling me who designed what doors...
" I can't help myself, and ask, "Well, did you like any of it?" His
tone changes, as I'm about to be dropped off at my stop, and I'll
never know which was the pose. "Actually, I loved all of it, but I'm
an American businessman and I'm supposed to talk that way."
On the train,
a group speaks loud German. Trying to escape into the score on my
lap, I am brought up short and almost out of my seat by a reference
to "die Schwulen"-"fags." Images of concentration camps flash, and
I flush. As I simmer down, I realize I'm countering one stereotype
with another. Can we ever just all recognize each other as human beings?
We treat ourselves
to an anniversary dinner in a fine restaurant-good food, a beautiful
location, attentive service, and I'm even not the only man with a
tie on-and are grateful that we have lucked into the one waiter in
the establishment who doesn't address his customers as "you guys."
There is apparently still a chink left for momentary deference, not
to persons goodness knows, but to circumstance, in this blessedly
egalitarian society of ours.
I notice we're
no longer making out our checks to "Internal Revenue Service," but
to "United States Treasury." I assume this is a result of the congressional
hearings last year that exposed abuses by the IRS, and vented the
latent fury of the American taxpayer towards those depriving "us"
of "our" earnings to fuel the doings of "the" government. "They" must
think (I hope correctly) that "United States" elicits an automatic
positive response among most Americans. Perhaps the rose with this
name shows more clearly that we're all in this together. I'm buying
services for you, and you for me. Thank you, and you're welcome.
Now
I try to tack
a moment to the mind
With the cardinal's call,
Sharp dart pricking a point in time.
But which is Now,
The note that stings or its unguent repetition?
And how to funnel down the dot
Memory and anticipation?
Only the unarticulated stream,
Upending Heraclitus' waders
With the charge of its changes,
Can mesmerize,
Like a branch caught by the bridge,
The instant.
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